Re: Take it easy !

Hi, Hamako.

〉〉Good evening, Hamako !
〉〉The fun time to me comes here with your coming back !

〉Oh, you seem to really enjoy writing in English!
〉and so do I.

It's because my heart has been twisted with my frustration
for unable to chat with someone, like you !

〉〉〉〉As you said that, I slightly feel like that I'm one of
〉〉〉〉your kids.
〉〉〉〉Even though I feel that's not bad...
〉〉〉Aha. Pat a cake, pat a cake.
〉〉Ahaaaaah, WATCH IT !!!!
〉〉The sponge biscuit which has blossomingly ballooned
〉〉in the oven is now gradually becoming deflated miserably,
〉〉with your patting song with your hands !!! (Laughing !)

〉Why, it would puff up again with my magical hands!!!

Oooooh !
I've forgot you are one of the witches who can renewly
draw the world, make it happy and affectionate.

〉Any way, that "pat a cake, pat a cake" is one of Mother Gooses.
〉I know I might concentrate on I must not use any Mother Gooses
〉when I talk someone (may be) isn't familiar with nursery rhymes.
〉But my basic English is made from picture books and Mother Goose.
〉So it is naturally for me to sung rhymes in the unconscious.
〉I felt sorry for used the Mother Goose.
〉Also I was enjoy your twiddly joke!

Oh, come on, Hamako !
Don't get serious about it.

Er...Well.
Exactly, I didn't know that rhyme actually came from
Mother Goose.
But, with my fast investigation, I understood this
might be some kind of kid's song with patting their
hand to other's hand.

Also I didn't know the sense of this rhyme when I wrote my
previous article (and now).
So I might got wrong picture with my impatient
investigation.

But I didn't mean to offend you, entirely, never !
You can take it easy !!!

If you would encounter some guys who'd be hardly familiar
with Mother Goose, like me, when you would quote some of it,
then simply you could say "Ooops, you don't know it, do you ?
It's actually Mother Goose (^^)"

By the way, I think it must be good occasion to me.
Maybe you already knew, I'm going to devote in the world
of ORT recently.

I would like to enter the world of Mother Goose when I've
finished ORT. I think it's more preferrable to be parallelled
with ORT if I could.

Could you give me some of your recommendation for learning
Mother Goose's rhyme, songs and stories when you have enough
time ?

I would like to have bunch of picture-books but mostly novels
and CDs for songs with leaflet of rhymes.

〉〉〉〉As a result, I often have been being called I was a
〉〉〉〉too logical freak, and I had to admit it.
〉〉〉Oo-oh, you called it a spiral thing on the another board.
〉〉Actually, it's slightly different stuff.
〉〉The term "Spiral" on the other board was pointing my
〉〉character actually, on the other word, "Spiral-minded".
〉〉This meant that I was pretty bloody-minded helplessly
〉〉in my youth.

〉Ah... I couldn't get the difference between "too logical freak"
〉and your youth's character's "bloody-minded".

It may be the worst habitude of my way of thinking.
Recently I became thinking it might be worse than my
too-logical-way.

As I wrote in some Japanese articles, I have been feeling
really sad when the different things were not strictly
distinguished and these kind of distinction seemed to be
abandoned by most of my companies.
Therefore I can't enjoy myself without these kind of
distinction.

Of course, I've already known that the people all around
myself would barely expect such a distinction, they
rather seemed to hate it.

So, talking honestly, I always have felt I was poor in
my communities, but I also have been encouraging myself,
"It's all right. I would be able to be, even though
there would be full of loneliness all around myself."

But, recently, I became considering "Now I might change
myself, not to bleed my blood anymore, with such stupid,
damn distinction."
"Who cares about these kind of distinction ?"
"Probably, I only care, mostly."

However it would seem to take more time.

〉〉〉〉So in my thiries, I was always caring not to be
〉〉〉〉too much locgical. As a result of my effort,
〉〉〉〉it seemed to become relived little by little.
〉〉〉〉But especially when I get tired too much, my
〉〉〉〉too-much-logical-way often arises again.
〉〉〉It sounds you've stacked with your logical side
〉〉〉and you like use it because that makes you enjoyable.
〉〉No, no, not like that.
〉〉I have not ever enjoyed my logical part.
〉〉It's quite weird to me.
〉〉But, at the instant I opened my mouth, or I started
〉〉writing, my words were too much logical, and I could
〉〉not change the way however I strugglingly took care
〉〉of it at that time.

〉Aah... you had been worrying since you noticed
〉that your logical part and sensitive part have difference ideas.
〉And you wanted your companies to understand about it.

No.
I have never expected someone to feel the emotion like as
commiserable if I can hardly do it well, although I
eagerly wish to do it very well.
Simply, I hated that I couldn't drive my logical part.

〉〉However, in my youth, although I could become aware of
〉〉and then recognize the root of such unmatches finally,
〉〉only thing I could do was to explain it to my
〉〉companies with the way of logical construction, then
〉〉it usually became stupid ,senseless, simply too long
〉〉logical explanation !

〉I think you have been so practiced in your logical part...
〉But I guess if it is a habit and you have wanted to get out of the habit,
〉someday you could do what you want to, if it really comes from deep inside you.
〉(I can heard you said, "I know what your meant in my head, but...")

So, I always think I'm still in progress in the huge maze
which is so-called the Human-Life.

〉〉〉〉In addition, you are so generous that you
〉〉〉〉never got angry or bad feelings even if I reject
〉〉〉〉your offer to use face-marks, aren't you ?
〉〉〉I think there is no reason why I got angry or bad feelings.
〉〉〉But I often angry for my sons' bad behaviors!
〉〉Ahaha.
〉〉I bet you're definitely the greatest mother in the world.

〉Ho-ho. I don't know.

Hamako, I like you very much. Gyuuuu....
Is it a bit strange ?

〉〉In the meantime, what's the matter with your kids ?
〉〉I'm wondering if there would be some irritating stories
〉〉with your sons, right before you started writing your
〉〉article....

〉The most of the reasons why I squall them,
〉it is when they don't care about the "time" at all.
〉For example, "the meeting time with school kids for go to school in the morning",
〉"do the homework before go to bed" (you two must finish by
〉10 o'clock or you'll be groan for sleepy next morning!),
〉"go to a clinic before dark", so on.
〉They always enjoy chatting and laughing and crawling whenever they're gather,
〉and forgot the "time".

Mmmm...

〉Also I give praises them every day for they've done a little thing.
〉I say "what a good boy!", "you're wonderful!", "daisuki!", so on.
〉I squeeze them and sweep and pick them (only one kid at each time)
〉up and turn him once. (because they're heavy now. I can do it one time).

Since pleasingly struggling kid weighs very heavy...

〉And I often apologizes them when I did a mistake to them
〉or got angry with the wrong reasons.
〉I threw my arms and beg a pardon for them.
〉"I did such a silly thing, gomenne!"
〉I sometimes just say, "gomenne",
〉but we all like to hug, so I do it for almost the time.

Fumufumu.

〉The day before yesterday was a holiday.
〉I didn't get angry all day.
〉We went out to a prefectural park. It has a very large land.
〉We played on the grassy carpet area.
〉We tried pick crawfishes up at a pond.
〉We walked in the woods, and along the several tiny rivers sides,
〉climbed up and down the stone steps of a castle,
〉and pedalled a "swan boat" at the lake.
〉We had spent a very richly time.

〉And yesterday I didn't angry at all, too.

Your family stories make me admiring how happy if I would
have kids !!!
Needless to say, to keep peace and happy is the best thing
of the whole world. But I also know there must be bunch
of situation in actual family-life, perhaps, it would be
unable to keep peace and happy, simply.

But your flexible mind seems to affect your family greatly
and I truly admire your family and yourself.

〉〉〉What did you do at that time?

〉〉First I had been afraid of any of the delays of my work.
〉〉That would have to devastate all of these joyful things.
〉〉At that period, I has been nervous all the time.
〉〉I rather prayed every day, how grateful I was if there
〉〉were no requests from my customer, no modification for
〉〉the specification, no problems around all of my working
〉〉field...
〉〉As a result, any delays has not occured.

〉Oh, that's good to hear!
〉Perhaps you always have done good things every day!

Maybe...

〉〉So I could go to the camp with carrying my ceremonial
〉〉clothes.
〉〉Then I had to leave the camp during the lesson in the
〉〉last morning.

〉Oh...

〉〉I felt slightly sober in the wedding party.
〉〉And I returned home without taking part in the 2nd
〉〉party for cerebrating wedding, with my curious
〉〉loneliness.

〉Groan...

〉〉There were no cell phones in those days.
〉〉I couldn't make any contacts with my fellows who
〉〉were supposed to be enjoying their after-camp-party.
〉〉I was thinking my weariness, wondering what a joyful
〉〉time they were spending, then unconsciouly fell asleep.

〉Lonesome... I want to cuddle your heart which is you got that day.

Saying briefly, thank you.
I can feel relieved with your words.

See you.